I'm sorry...

...was the words I couldn't say. I didn't know where to insert them, and I didn't want you to start blaming yourself. but it was my fault... I didn't like that he used to hit you, or that he still took drugs... I was too narrow minded to see how he had reformed after being with you, and that you were happy. I shouldn't have introduced you to the other guy as well and encouraged you. perhaps I felt he couldn't bring you happiness, but you already had it. I'm really sorry. I feel so helpless hearing you cry. I really don't know what to say. I've caused you such an amount of grief. every tear you shed, I feel guilty. but mostly I feel helpless, and angry @ myself, and upset that you have to go through such amount of grief. your tears are like needles all over me. I love you, my dear friend. I'm sorry.