how will you ever understand what I think... that those thoughts do not conform to what you understand. I have no excuse for myself, nor do I blame others. Just let me be what I want to be. Let me reap what I sow. You do not hear the arguments I have with them, you do not hear what I say in my heart. How do I say what I want to, to you? How will you understand that I am still lost, I am still seeking, and I am trying? I just hope for once you'll go with me. Maybe then you can get to know me better.