英雄难过美人关.. 我非美人，但我败在英雄关.

It's happening again. I can feel my stubborness moving in. I refuse to let it overtake the heart for the people that God installed after all those trouble. Got that little nigging feeling again.. it's those #$%^&* slow chinese songs.. that makes me want to mellow, to snuggle in someone's embrace, to receive a rushed good morning sms...... but I know my weakness. That's one reason why I cut my hair so short.. but I hesitated at cutting it shorter. Why? I don't know. *sigh* 英雄难过美人关.. 我非美人，但我败在英雄关. I know myself too well. I have to admit this shortfall. Until I am mature enough.. God will know. But I doubt if I have the strength to complete the length I feel He has dictated. God.. please bless everyone around me.. I thank You for Your new tender mercies and blessings so full of grace everyday... Please annoint the team and its leader in MS; oversee the CG and unit, and the never ending restructuring (honest joke, david I'm not bitter! honest!); bless the examiners at UoL (hope these buggers know what they are doing), and whoever is reading. God I pray that You will continually place Your Hand over my life.. my puny existance in the universe. ciao.