fear

you have any idea what's it's like to live in constant fear?   fear of things that WILL happen, but perhaps not now.   the constant worry that it'll happen today, later, now.   I'm getting afraid to go home, although I long to be in my comfort zone again. just that I'm afraid that I won't survive the journey back. even now, my most "comfortable" form of transport - taxis - have been influenced. I'm going take bus now, my illogical rationales, haha.   daily, deja vu - it irks me, it scares me, it shocks me.   words like home, go, leave, rest, goodbye... it frightens me.   See you guys tomorrow.