bus bus bus, why do you torture me so.

It's doing that to me again. My bus is taking million years to arrive. Wait and see me fossilised.

fear

Did you ever experience fear? The kind that grabs you by the throat and chokes you, and makes you puke, giving you the most gut and stomach feeling ever.   I get it everyday. I’m afraid to sleep.

going, going, gone

hi all I am going to tender my resignation tomorrow, to much my regret. I love this company, even though sometimes it gets frustrating. Normally, if I feel that I don't value add a company already I'll leave. But I was getting up and better in this, and I really wanted to stay. Now I have to go. It sucks. It absolutely sucks. Meanwhile, I ask for your prayers to tide me over this 45 days notice, that I am able to study properly and effectively and to the best that I can ever be. Also, this blog might be inactive for a while. A long, long while until I get things in place. Mobile blogging here and there maybe, but photos often don't show up, so where's the fun? Sorry to my churchmates - you guys are actually the only people who demand my presence often (and it's great) and I miss all youse. I hope those brothers and sisters on the 'border' enter our 'nation' soon =) In other news, miss ene has changed her blog add, and embarked a new job too. Heh. Ask her for her new bloggie. sky aka moby watched the Memoirs of the Geisha, mrbrown and miyagi went on TV (here and here). Deb lamented the fact that everyone was asking her about her marital status, Peter relived some of his favourite childhood memories, cherrine pondered about growing up, faith had a really funky group V Day celebration, brian's old cat died, and Linus and I have a standoff - she refuses to acknowledge me, I refuse to let her in my room. See ya.

we're a-queuing nation

Today must be ranting day. Stupid lunch time crowd... Like me. Too friggin' crowded! If I wasn't meeting K today I'll have gone somewhere else to eat. Long long queues... Still, not as bad because at least there are still seats, although they are bar seats.

crush

ok, I admit it! He looks better than ever, and I still have that huge crush on him. But he's always too busy, friends or work, and we don't know each other enough. But he's damn cute, such a nice guy, and he went out with someone else on V Day (-_-''') nair mine, like what my brother always says... if it's meant to be mine, it'll be. I just don't know when I can go out with him at all. sigh.

where's my bus, dude!

I hate my bus. It's making me late. I reached the stop at 740. It's nearly 8 and my stupid bus hasn't arrived. If I lose my job due to being late, I'm going to sue SBS for misrepresenting that they can be trusted with good timing. It makes a difference, right? I mean, when I back in Ipoh, no one tried to fool anyone that they had "excellent" bus services. We just reached the bus stop earlier, hoped to get one. Now here, we are told that it's reliable, so we go to a stop, and expect it to happen. The longest it'll take, what, maybe fifteen minutes? How naive of us.

comics 10 Feb 06

weaning myself off my Mac, so will do all the comics by these two weeks!

Silly old man

I was at china square food centre today, drawing cash from the atm. See, I work near there, and pass by this tiny museum behind far east square at Spinelli's (ya I know that's the wrong spelling but the stupid phone does not have that inside its dictionary) but recently have not gone there. It was drizzling slightly and hence people tried to keep out of the rain. When I turned, I got shocked by this sight: why was a man there? where did the table come from? why was he in the middle of the rain? freaky? you bet! on closer inspection, I realised that it was a wax (or so I think) figure, for some tea thing inside. Even upon a close look, he looked super real!

don't.

Just as I was saying... Don't expect anything. Them you might not get hurt.

dai kor in Tokyo.

Dai Kor's in the Capital City of the Land of the Rising Sun. (ok, I forgot how to spell Tokyo here can? I kept writing Tyoko until fed up.) Me: How's the Land of the Rising Sun treating you? DK: well....my ass is frozen... Me: hahhaha DK: no lar...I am coping fine... been here too many times already Me: your ass might look better frozen DK: hahahaha dun grope!!! shucks! Me: eyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy *puke* I just my coffee, can? I know la, grammar error la DK: u just ur coffee? DK: drank? puke? Me: ya, puke cannot liquid meh misunderstood la DK: it was so cold this morning my "meng long" became "xiao chong" already.... Me: ................................. dai kor, I really didn't need to know that.... I really didn't need to know that.... Me: argh.... DK: temp was -2 degrees celcius with wind blowing DK: hahahah :P Me: I am so going to blog this. bleah DK:this is the coldest winter I ever face in Tokyo...but heng ah...managable for me... somehow it is not as cold as I expected. DK: but still cold enough.... too cold for my boss and colleague Me: hahahah DK: either I am crazy.....or I am getting stronger.. Me: .............................................. I opt for crazy DK: hahahha.... DK: I even attempted to bath the icy cold water this morning.. Me: hhahahahhaha Me: that just confirms my theory He is mad.

I don't know what she's thinking.

sometimes I honestly don't know what she's thinking... I think a good guage of a friendship is when I stop contacting her and wait for her to start smsing me.. and it just doesn't happen. She doesn't call or sms me on her own. I ask her out a couple of times, and once she fly kite, the other she said she's not free. I can understand that, I really can, if not, how could I have been her friend for so long. But reading her blog can cause me grief, in more than one way. Ask her, what for? Reasons? I know her better than to do this. Reasons she'll always have, those that I can't fault. No, it's not the reasons, it's the unwillingness to try to make time with me. I'm not comparing, but something is wrong when I can stop my entire life if I deems she needs it... and she's not willing to say "no" to some guy who wants to disrupt our dinner date. I love her to death, you know. I really love her to death. But if all the contact is done from my side, I'm just cutting into her life, where she doesn't really want me. And I'm sort of used to it. I'll live. But my phone lines are always open to you. If you need me, just call me and sms me. If you don't need me, but want to talk, just call me and sms me... I just need to know if I'm clinging onto you and preventing you from getting on with your life. I don't blame C for what he did - he felt that I prevented him from getting the kind of life he wants.. I really just wanted the best for him and still wish him that. Actually, him too. I know he's trying to keep a "safe distance" from me... bro, look, I ain't interested in you. It's your friendship I cherish a lot. So, ok? It's sad when they refuse to disrupt their SOPs for lunch for me just once in a while. It ain't that bad actually, it just reconfirms my standing with them. I know that I'm not someone easy to be friends with, that's why I do cherish them, because they take the effort to include me. But sometimes, with them, with others, I feel like I should just shut up, sit down, get on with my life. Socially inadequate ain't an excuse, I am always wrong. At least I'm consistent with something. I know, I ain't worth a shit. From Lawrence of forbetterorforworse: I like growing plants. You water, fertilize, treat them with respect, and in exchange they grow and bloom. When they finally leave, you know they didn't do it out of their own will.

it's a cycle

Went for service.. Haven't been here for a while, seems so foreign. They went to sit behind her... And I'm a little fearful. I don't know how to behave later. Monthly self loathing has began. Haha. I just did the cowardly thing - I chose to sit away.

sleepy

wanted to blog, but too tired. Sorry currytan, the tag has got to wait.. =) but actually I did it before already... but since I'm quite the exhibitionist, I'll just do it again.. this one ain't that exhaustive. Eyes straining. Linus doesn't wanna come up to my bed and sleep with me. Same room, different bed... says a lot about me. Ok really buay tahan already...

greenxboxman's meme

In response to my tag in the meme, the GreenXBoxMan (who either does not have a blog or does not want to reveal to me) sent me email on it. Four jobs you've had in your life: Avatar wannabe in Britannia on Ultima IV Master Chief stand in Product manager Goldfarmer Four movies you could watch over and over: Windows start up sequence EA Games opening screen "EA Games Challenge everything" Loading screen when logging in WoW End sequence of Halo and Halo 2 Four places you've lived in: Hang Them High Lockout Orgrimmar APOC Four TV shows you love(d) to watch: No TV See first answer in this category See last answer in this category No TV Four places you've been on vacation: Pillar of Autumn Molten Core Stormwind/Ironforge Strangletorn Vale Four websites you visit daily: www.thottbot.com www.worldofwarcraft.com XBox www.happytreefriends.com Four of your favourite foods: Food from Mezza9 on Hyatt‚s brunch buffet Food from Kushinbo buffet Food that I no need to pay money Food that is cheap and full of MSG* when I am broke (*all cheap food have MSG) Four places you would rather be: Azeroth Standing over Onynxia‚s dead body Making out with Joanna Dark Watching a Night elf do a lap dance for me

comics 3rd Feb 06 - Six Chix Special