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I'm the broccoli of dating

broccoli from Frasier. Frasier slept with Roz. Hahahhahahaha. Totally understand what they are feeling, but at least mine wasn't that sudden, not that it was the exact same thing. I was telling chuwen that day that a lot of my male friends say I'm the perfect girlfriend. I was, maybe, but now, I've evolved so much I don't really recognise myself. Don't like it though. Funny though, I'm the "perfect" girlfriend but none of them are attracted to me hahahaa. I'm the Broccoli of Dating. I don't know how come you come to my blog, but I hope you did find what ever you wanted to find.

"everyone has pressure" - so shut up la

Some wise guy made a music video out of the "Hong Kong Bus Uncle" incident. Not that bad actually. See the Singaporean Spoof here (via Lancerlord) text link here

overdue meme

I just remembered that I still owe MB a couple of meme. Bro, I'm not doing the 7x7=49 one, and I hope you understand. Blog Stalker 3 blogs because of their pictures. This is a tough one… I don't usually go look at pictures… mrbrown - I like seeing pictures of his kids. Blinkymummy - I like her photos? Er, that's all. 3 blogs because they make you really think / seek information. ModernBurrow he makes me think. headache now. Lancerlord what would www be without his links? Tomorrow.Sg need anymore explanation? 3 blogs because they make you laugh. Mr Brown because he is funny The Green Ogre because he is funny? littlemissdrinkalot because she is funny, la! and tag 3 blogs! (do I really) 过分美丽 chuwen currytan Ok, I don't read much blogs now. That explains right? =)

to all my friends

marvin 一个像夏天一个像秋天, 范玮琪 第一次见面看你不太顺眼 谁知道后来关系那么密切 我们一个像夏天一个像秋天 却总能把冬天变成了春天 你拖我离开一场爱的风雪 我背你逃出一次梦的断裂 遇见一个人然后生命全改变 原来不是恋爱才有的情节 如果不是你我不会相信 朋友比情人还死心塌地 就算我忙恋爱 把你冷冻结冰 你也不会恨我 只是骂我几句 如果不是你我不会确定 朋友比情人更懂得倾听 我的弦外之音 我的有口无心 我离不开darling更离不开你 你了解我所有得意的东西 才常泼我冷水怕我忘形 你知道我所有丢脸的事情 却为我的美好形象保密 There's nothing more precious than friendship and kinship. My friends cut me down to size when my head bloats, encourage me to pursue my passions, give me comfort, drag themselves out of their house when I really want to go out even they do not want to. I may not know much things, but I do know that my friends and family - you are the best. Bagus! Have you told your friend how much you love him/her? Ok, I know guys find it hard to say these stuff, and probably hate to hear the word love coming from another guy's mouth directed to self, but I'm sure there are things you can do to tell them how much you cherish their friendship. To all my friends and buddies, you know how much I lub you right? =) I heart you!

music videos

Count on me Singapore: still one of my favourite songs - here This is the reason why Taufik won, and I still think he's a great singer, just lousy management: here Why, why, why was Juz-B kicked out? Sigh. Kiss them goodbye. This still sends shivers down my spine, and this really makes me laugh and scream whoopee, and see them go Brokeback. I miss my TBone... ... and I love Concave Scream!

Get it CLEAR la!

This is funny. The other day I went with my frens to go lim kopi I tell the uncle I want milo mix with my teh c He say, ‘both put in one cup?’ I say yes correct steady The end I still get milo c and teh c SEPARATELY! I tell the uncle ‘eh, don’t say I just now didn’t say, I want them both together but you serve me in this way If just now not clear say lah don’t just gong gong say ok!’ He tell me make already no choice, shut up drink and pay!’ Bloody hell lah! Get it clear lah! Uncle make me damn dulan! Kanina lah! Get it clear lah! How come always like that one? Get it CLEAR! I say how come you never hear? Get it CLEAR! You better listen with your ear! Get it CLEAR! I say liao one more time I fear I will concuss! I will peng san! GET IT CLEAR! The other day I went downstair to buy some vcd I ask the ah beng there if he got Fearless by Jet Li He tell me now got Fearless TWO and even Fearless THREE! I say, ‘wah biang! so power!’ then I buy back home and see The end I watch what Fearless Three, lan jiao where got this show? The vcd I buy is just that stupid show, ‘Hero’! My frens who watch with me all say I damn bloody bodo I say I thought I told him liao! How I suppose to know? Bloody hell lah! Get it clear lah! Hero is not Fearless Three! Kanina lah! Get it clear lah! I want Fearless show ONLY! Get it CLEAR! I say how come you never hear? Get it CLEAR! You better listen with your ear! Get it CLEAR! I say liao one more time I fear I will concuss! I will peng san! GET IT CLEAR! Bloody hell lah! Get it clear lah! Wah lau! Make me damn pek chek! Kanina lah! Get it clear lah! Say until I sibeh gek! on another topic, something is wrong. I just cooked a nice fat chicken drumstick for my cats, and not one of them is eating any part of it. Not even Greedy Linus!

Baby, you make me feel like a natural woman

I'm listening to Supanova's Christmas gift to me now. I opened it only yesterday. Lady Sings the Blues, although it's not exactly the same cover. 过分美丽 and I were talking about love and how we've evolved. We were talking about the ones that we had wanted and almost married, and how our lives were and are. I asked her one question, if that she could go back and change a single thing with any of the men that she had, knowing the future, what would she change? She said, "Nothing." She teaches me much about love, about how to not put yourself in the first place. We were at our new regular pub with TheGreenGirl, and somehow this issue of love and life had popped up also. We all agreed, at different timings, that 人类的心是个无底洞. We were musing about who we have grabbed to fill that void, and concluded that it wouldn't work unless we really like it. Maybe the 无底洞 is meant to distract us from finding the right one - we really must work at it. just musing I haven't dated in 3 years, not intentionally. There have been guys I really liked, but they always seemed to like me, just not enough. Sometimes I've been served with the "I really like you but I don't want to go into a relationship now", and it had been more than once. Sucks right? But the good thing is that most of these guys I didn't like them to the extent that I am willing to lay my life down - even that less than a friend. We were talking about balancing the odds: how much are we willing to take or how much should we like the guy before it's not just about filling the 无底洞? I am not willing to take just any guy, it wouldn't be fair to the both of us, but where's the "boundary"? Should there be a boundary? Are we already immune to that stage that we cannot tell? I can be fond of many guys at a time, but not like a single one. Tiring, doesn't it sound? But if I don't like anyone, I don't have to waste emotional energy on him. I do want to someone to love and hold, to have someone kiss me good morning, to have someone call me, "Baby, what time is dinner?" and to have someone spend time with me and my family. However, like I said, I am not willing to anyheow grab someone. I will want to persist that friendship is always number one for me - God knows I need more of those. Then the other topic is about married men. But that's a topic for some other time, some other post. But the best thing that came of the night is that 过分美丽 did have a good time (at least for a while), we all did. We managed to catch up with TheGreenGirl, and boy, is that rare. But since I'm unemployed (and very broke), I'm more free to be able to match her schedule. I really miss those days that we were invincible and all that could hurt us was love, those days that we would go home pissed drunk and wake up the next day with a freaking head/back/neck/tummy ache and still will smile at the night before. But those were the days, and a lot of mistakes (and sins) were committed. I would like the fun, minus the wrongs. Could I get my cake and eat it too? I had a lot of fun minus the puke. I didn't drink much. We laughed a lot. We took ridiculous photos. TheGreenGirl made me feel like I was one of her closest friends (we don't remain in contact much, though we do love each other) and asked if she could come to church with me this Sunday (just right that it's this Sunday I planned to start attending services again). 过分美丽 got her pool groove back. She used to be very good at it, but ironically didn't enjoy it that much. Now, she's writing her name on the board all the time, and winning half the time. While it's obvious that some guys let her win intentionally (BOOYAH!), some guys really couldn't help it but lose. When I start getting paid, boy, am I going to start whacking balls with a stick into holes on a table. You know, girls, being with the both of you.... You make me feel like a natural woman.

I remember you, do you remember me?

I once had a friend. I don't get to see her often, and every now and then I think of her, and wonder how my life would have went if she had still been my friend. She would have given me good balanced sane advice, encouraged me to go for my insane passions, and given me a listening ear. She would have talked me out of my fleeting but horrible moments of sin, and gave me a shoulder to cry on. She would have understood, and if she didn't, she would have silently comforted when it was needed, or would have given advice when I asked. I miss her. But I thank God for her. I thank God that she's still alive and well, and that she's still has her mind. I thank God that there are spiritually strong friends around her that keep a constant watch on her. I thank God that she, albeit her strong stubborness, knows what is important in her life. I thank God that I once had the privilege of her friendship. I once had a friend. He meant the world to me, and I thought the world of him and his numerous talents. I used to ponder what my life would be now with him by my side. Would I have tread on this path? I would have been more successful for his sake, and I am sorry that I am unable to fulfill your dream. The dreams we had talked about when we were young. If I had the money, I would send you to that school, and never tell you it was me. I would pay for you to exhibit your works, because the world needs to see the greatness of your God-given talent. But I would have wanted you to be rejected a few times, to have struggled for a while, so that you would be a better person. We were young, and now we are adults. I was 16, and now I am 23. Time has flown. I know you had chosen me out of your life, perhaps I didn't allow you to be what you wanted to in JC. I respected your choice, and still do. I remember our discussions on God now, and wonder how you are doing in your walk with God. I wonder about your parents, your strong father who loves your mother who cried over your condition. I had been blessed with no long-term medical ailment, and I cannot say for sure that I understand what you were going though totally. I remember reading up on it, and was relieved that it was not a life-threatening condition although I was aghast to read that there was no total cure for it. Now, I ponder whether you remember me, our times together. I remember our favourite wontonmee stall, that we'll both order pepsi, that we'll both see who says grace first. I thank God for you, that I was your friend, the memories that I'll hold dear to me. I'll tell my children that I once had such a friend, and I'll be proud of it. Both of you remind me that I have to cherish my friends, and keep them closer to me. Especially those that I know care, but have not kept in contact with. I will seek them out.

Of friends, cats and a swimming pool.

My Linus is on Jerry Seinfeld! Here's an old random video of my cats. Can watch it here. Chuwen came over to my place last night, and we played Halo on my XBox with Supanova. We teamed up against Supanova, but still got creamed! Heh. He's good. We also went to Al-Azhar for supper. Check chuwen's blog for pics. We were supposed to go to Sentosa today, but we stayed up late watching tv after Halo and 过分美丽 had a late and tiring night, plus the fact that her insomnia is getting from bad to worse. I smsed 太漂亮了 and I think she also had a very very late night. Since there were only the 2 of us left, we decided to stay at my place, which is like "an old resort", to coin chuwen. We went to the pool, and couldn't resist snapping these pictures of chuwen, who is sooooooooo vain. Hahahahaha. There was a cute baby there, and she touched chuwen on his back, played with my goggles, and had the most enchanting laugh. We also dyed our hair! Because both of us have short hair, we shared a bottle of hair dye, but the results were not that obvious. I still think it'll show, but only after a shampoo or two. On other grounds, I need to confess, and repent. I went over the line, again! And this time, I don't even know what I was thinking. Haiya. Must start putting life in order - CG, service, MPS, etc. "I can resist everything but temptation" - Oscar Wilde Pray for me, people? Love you guys.

I don't read blogs anymore...

...except when it's my friends' or those older blogs that I've thrived on. But generally, I don't read blogs anymore. I go to Tomorrow.Sg and browse, but there is no kick. I read Blinkymummy, and chuckle, but there is no eagerness like I used to have - that was the first website I'll go to every morning. I went to Mooiness, and agreed, but I no longer have that urge to vocally express my opinions. I went to mrbrown, and looked for his antedotes on Faith, Issac and Joy, and remembered Nincompoop's statement on "talking about children all the time is boring" although I agree not. But what his blog looks like now is greatly similar to Miyagi's: just the podcasts, and such. I do enjoy their Today columns though. Xiaxue gets boring, and Kennysia, well, argh. I like faithtoh's, but I don't read it that often. I love The Green Orge, and LittleMissDrinkalot, but only go to their pages once in a while. I don't even read MollyMeek anymore, unless I am really bored. Sometimes I end up on one of the links from their pages. I still do read chuwen's blog and 过分美丽's. I still browse around, but there's no kick. Which brings me to the point of: Podcasting is just radio personified, and slapped with a fashionable name. Blogging is just putting your opinions and words online, like a webpage. Sixchix Are blogs really overrated? Maybe blogs are just another avenue to go into other people's life, and stop focusing on our own? Not that it's lethal: balance is always important. It's like gossip magazines, but with our own "celebrities": these people are more real, is that it? Our own celebrities like BM, Miyagi? You know what? Somehow, I don't really wanna care and go into that topic. I'm grown more stupid, and well... sigh.

oozinator commercial

this is real. It's really damn funny. Read about it here . I mean, this is one of those times where one goes, "What were they thinking???!!!" From Hasbro: Sneak up on your opponents with a surprise bio-ooze attack! Just when they think you’re coming at ‘em with water, blast ‘em with a shot of icky bio-ooze! Shoot out globs of gooey bio-ooze and then drench ‘em with water! It’s a double blast attack that’ll keep your opponents on their toes and running during every water fight. With the OOZINATOR blaster you don’t just get soaked, you get drenched!

latitude cafe

I went to the Latitude Cafe at OG Orchard today. It used to be the Hemisphere Cafe, next to the Hemisphere collection (local designers), but the new name works fine. It's one of those places where you'll start realising, on a repeat visit, that why you love that place so much. Everything was right. It was quiet, even though there were some conversation from the other end. The drinks weren't fantastic but the environment was. Even though the renovation was not like Starbucks or Coffeebean, etc, but once I was there, I was just content to sit there and read. I remember a long time ago, when I first bought my Zen Micro (at least a year ago!), where I sat there sitting for my friends to catch a movie, I think. I had a great time, being alone. Here are some snapshots. It's a great place to hang out, one of the only reasons I'll go town these days. I hate crowds. a nice lime drink, and cool air-conditioned room with the people outside sweltering under a 2pm sun. a nice book, and great decor that isn't the norm in cafes now-a-days. they have mags all over and books and games for people to play... and at no extra charge. Unlike some game cafes that charge per hour... another shot of the cafe with a nice view... great for people watching. Just don't wear a skirt and 走光 at the window! where I sat, and the menu. I was curled up at the chair, and noticed the chair's cover. I found out if one stares the chair for too long, one can get cross-eyed and dizzy: the colours starts blending into one another. I also had a sandwich and put my fave tabasco sauce on it haha. Wanted to take photos of it when it first came, but totally forgot and dug in... until that little bit is left. My friend had fries. And we had games! Can you believe that this is the first time I ever played 飞机棋 (aka Ludo)? I had a lot of luck and my friend kept from "kicking" me off the board, heh. I had fun.

可怜的干妈!

My 干妈 just woke up and is feeling a little pissed off, so I decided to help her blog. She says that sometimes it relaxes her. She also said that she had a lot of "blogging material" about men who cheat and nice pics so that she can slowly blog about them someday, but not today/now cos she's too lazy tired. Just now, my little brother and big sister (who both always bully me) went out! I also stood outside - one of the windows without grilles were open! I heard Daddy scold 干妈 but she insist that she didn't. I believe her. Big sister Kiwi is very smart, and little brother Alex is intelligent. But both are mean to me, hmph. Anyways, Kiwi and Alex both ran out and 干妈 walked quite a bit looking for Alex! Because at that time, Mummy already found Kiwi... 干妈 was worried for Kiwi cos one of the times she walked her, there was thunder and Kiwi (hee hee) freaked out and went berserk. I saw the scratches on 干妈's hand and body. Hmph, mean to me and bully my 干妈. Anyways both are back already. I know 干妈 is upset, and I ran into the room when she was walking in. But how, I very bad at consoling people leh. I think I purr and headbutt and rub against her without going to the pantry for food can le hor? my naughty brother and sister that got my 干妈 scolded. Although I also stood outside la.

that little bit of beer is making me feel weird

Met up with 过分美丽 and 太漂亮了 today. We had yummy prata! We found this new place at Boat Quay to makan - it's just next to Shah Alam, and man, the food is good. Think it's called Boat Quay Banana Leaf... Look at that tissue prata! He put condensed milk on it... growing tummy. Heh. But it was good! I didn't take a photo of the Mutton but the meat was so tender... Really one of the better food for a while. Anyways, something funny happened - 太漂亮了 broke her loyal shoes and we went to get new ones for her from VNC at OUB Centre. Ended up... I realised that I didn't want to continue wearing my rather worn out and not that comfy shoes and 过分美丽 found a pair that she liked. I threw my old pair away intentionally, but 过分美丽 threw hers away when she got upset at certain obnoxious MCP cheating betraying men. Anyway, we 3 all bought shoes... =) And I bought a "normal looking pair of shoes" but it's a first for me... In view of the sales, we had to lower our standards, especially 太漂亮了 and me. We went to this pub, and loved it. It's exactly the kind we like, and nice people there help. =) But when we left, one had been moody, one was sad, and one was desperately in need of familiar surroundings (home). But we did have some fun. Heh. On a parting note for this post, here's sweet furgie.

here it is boys and girls

Ok ok. If I don't do this, I'm going to get clobbered by a number of people, including chuwen. Had this for lunch with 过分美丽 I (heart) fried rice! Fried Rice Paradise! We played pool yesterday! I played like shit, dammit. Here's my take on this pic. Here's chuwen's take on this pic. He has funny cowboy legs, hahaha. Here's another shot of him playing. I have something for seeing skinny guys scare the shit out of my readers. And how skinny is he? He's ASSless. On a separate note, I discovered Monopoly again!

Of Needles and Phobias

Hey readers of The Rational Neurotic, this is Chu Wen and I'll be guest blogging for her while she crams for her examinations thats due to end on the 13th of June. Behold the good news, for The Rational Neurotic has overcome her phobia of needles! By the way, in case you're wondering, that's not my hand that's holding onto hers. I am happily single. Period. Cheah Chu Wen